This is turning out to be a stressful week! It seems like everywhere I turn, something is happening around someone dying. While I have long since come to grips with my own mortality, I cannot escape the pain I feel when others die, or when my friends experience death of their loved ones, and this week I've felt like I'm just drowning in death. The thing that frustrates me so much is that I can't do anything. I can't stand to see people in pain, and I can't stand not being able to do anything to relieve them.
This evening, I went to a memorial for a young man who committed suicide. His family and classmates were so hurt, and all I could do was just be there. My cousin's dad passed and all I could do was just be around. Another friend's mom's memorial is in a few days, and again, there's not anything I can do to fix it for them. To top it all off, this is the month my Granny died, and it still feels like yesterday. I mean, I've prayed and will continue to, but I feel like I should be able to do something to take some of that pain away. I don't know, I just feel that way. Maybe I'm in God's way--maybe I just want God hurry and heal them. It's just frustrating, and of course, I'm tryin my best not to eat everything I see.
I've done better than I usually do, but still it is a challenge, and I didn't quite meet it. I had a piece of chocolate cake and some
greasy Londonand Sons chicken wings and gizzards--and it was all good.
Still, I have to find a different way to manage stressful times. Even though I didn't eat as much as I usually do when I'm
stressed, I have to change the inclination to eat when I'm stressed. It's not just eating, it's eating something fatty and decadent--nothing else is satisfying, well, except sex, but that's another story.
I think the key is accepting that stress is a part of life, and that eating is not the remedy. Stress will come and go, it's up to me to manage it. The one thing I take comfort in is that God is with me, and it will pass. The best thing I can do for my family and friends is pray for them, and know that God will comfort and strengthen them. It's not the easiest thing to do, but I believe it's necessary. Plus, I know from my own experiences, everything passes and new joys emerge with time. As the "old folk" used to say, "trouble don't last always."
This evening, I went to a memorial for a young man who committed suicide. His family and classmates were so hurt, and all I could do was just be there. My cousin's dad passed and all I could do was just be around. Another friend's mom's memorial is in a few days, and again, there's not anything I can do to fix it for them. To top it all off, this is the month my Granny died, and it still feels like yesterday. I mean, I've prayed and will continue to, but I feel like I should be able to do something to take some of that pain away. I don't know, I just feel that way. Maybe I'm in God's way--maybe I just want God hurry and heal them. It's just frustrating, and of course, I'm tryin my best not to eat everything I see.
I've done better than I usually do, but still it is a challenge, and I didn't quite meet it. I had a piece of chocolate cake and some
greasy Londonand Sons chicken wings and gizzards--and it was all good.
Still, I have to find a different way to manage stressful times. Even though I didn't eat as much as I usually do when I'm
stressed, I have to change the inclination to eat when I'm stressed. It's not just eating, it's eating something fatty and decadent--nothing else is satisfying, well, except sex, but that's another story.
I think the key is accepting that stress is a part of life, and that eating is not the remedy. Stress will come and go, it's up to me to manage it. The one thing I take comfort in is that God is with me, and it will pass. The best thing I can do for my family and friends is pray for them, and know that God will comfort and strengthen them. It's not the easiest thing to do, but I believe it's necessary. Plus, I know from my own experiences, everything passes and new joys emerge with time. As the "old folk" used to say, "trouble don't last always."